Well here she is. At least it seems she is a she, but we won't know for another couple months. Molly is pregnant with baby #5. She is about 13 weeks along with a due date of March 25, 2009. Molly has been sick (throwing up several times daily) for a long time. I don't know how long. It seems like forever. I don't think she has been this sick since Zoe was in there. The other kids don't know about the baby yet. I guess Molly gets tired of telling them everyday that it will still be another 6 months before the baby is born so she holds off on telling them as long as she can.
I was a bit undecided on the idea of having another baby. Four seemed like about as many as I could sanely handle. And Molly said she felt the same...except for this nagging urge to have another one. So in the end I came around and decided one more might be fun. I am excited for a new one. And worried. I can't say I am exactly the best dad in the world and who knows what kind of damage I have done to my current out-of-womb children so to have another one to take care of just adds to my current worries of inadequacy. And I am worried about Molly's life. She has had four C-sections already and her uterus isn't exactly in pristine condition anymore. But during the last C-section the doctor said it looked like she could have one more if she waited at least two years before getting pregnant again. So she did. So everything should be fine right? And how many times do you hear people say that they were expecting their wife to die during childbirth? Never. It is always a tragic unexpected occurrence. So the fact the I am thinking it will happen makes it less likely right? But if Molly did die, would the baby be worth it? I don't think so. I guess I just need to hope that I never have to face that question for real.
So we are thinking of naming her Mawtha because Leisel and Luke sound so cute saying it. Of course once they are grown that name may sound a little funny. Other names we have thought of in the past are Ethnie (girl), Jones Larsen (boy), Oscar (boy), Zeb (boy). I don't think we have fund the right name yet though. But Molly has really liked the name Ethnie for quite a long time. It's a little weird for most people's taste though. We still have quite a long time to consider names though.
2 comments:
Wow, Shaney, this post is kind of deep. Scary to think of that kind of stuff. As, for you being a good dad- I think you are amazing! You are so patient and mellow and your sense of humor pulls you through when you get upset. You're great, so don't worry about that!
I have a cousin named Ethnie. She's from Thayne Wyoming. That's what kind of name Ethnie is. Even though it's small town, it's still pretty.
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